I started this as a "happy" journal for my family - a place to record happy memories - stories - clever grandchildren quotes - all that stuff - happy stuff.
And then Greg died and everything changed. My life changed. My "head space" changed. My heart changed. I tried to keep this journal (No, it's not a blog. It's a journal.) going, but it seemed frivolous, inaccurate. How could I do this and ignore the heartache from Greg's death - for all of us? How could I do this and include the heartache from Greg's death - for all of us. To do that would be contradictory to my original purpose.
So, I don't know what I'm doing here. I hope I can still find a way to record some happy things. I have another place to record my walk with grief. I'll try to keep them separate - no promises.
In addition to happy thoughts, I think (this may change tomorrow) I hope to record my current life here - medical journey - house journey (or... start a kitchen reno in the middle of chemo? I have obviously lost my mind) - or "whatever" journey.
And then Greg died and everything changed. My life changed. My "head space" changed. My heart changed. I tried to keep this journal (No, it's not a blog. It's a journal.) going, but it seemed frivolous, inaccurate. How could I do this and ignore the heartache from Greg's death - for all of us? How could I do this and include the heartache from Greg's death - for all of us. To do that would be contradictory to my original purpose.
So, I don't know what I'm doing here. I hope I can still find a way to record some happy things. I have another place to record my walk with grief. I'll try to keep them separate - no promises.
In addition to happy thoughts, I think (this may change tomorrow) I hope to record my current life here - medical journey - house journey (or... start a kitchen reno in the middle of chemo? I have obviously lost my mind) - or "whatever" journey.
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